About a month ago I moved to night shift at work. I start when the sun goes down and get off a little after sunrise. Same work, just different hours. It hasn’t been a bad move but I’m having trouble adjusting to the night lifestyle.
When I get off work, I have to force myself to go to sleep. Once the sun comes up, I’m energized and want to ‘start the day’. If I’m outside too long, I’ll end up laying in bed for hours trying to fall asleep. So most of my ‘awake’ time is in the late evenings, before work. And there really isn’t much to do here in the middle of the night.
Initially I thought this would be a great thing. I’d stay in more, save money, get to work on personal projects (like this site). However, I really haven’t been doing anything. It’s a strange kind of purgatory. I’m awake but I feel a little dull. Maybe it’s the lack of people, no sunlight, I’m not really sure. Somedays I’m a little depressed but I think the mood thing will even out with time.
In the last two weeks I’ve had a lot of time off work. Thus, I have lots of free time in the middle of night. I’ve finished Agents of Shield, Firefly, and Heroes Reborn. I’ve watched a couple of movies, lots of Cryaotic on YouTube, dabbled in a few books. But overall, it’s felt massively unproductive.
It’s like normally I’d feel motivated enough to work on projects, exercise, read more, but the umph is not there. I understand that personal drive is a mental thing but I feel deenergized.
I don’t really know what else to say beyond that. I’m trying to figure it out, get a feel for it. But I don’t know where this is leading. Hopefully towards more productivity but I’m not sure.
